George Michael – Where I Hope You Are – Lyrics

Here’s a first pass at the lyrics for the wonderful new George Michael song, Where I Hope You Are.  It’s difficult to hear some of the words in the available recordings, so there will be some errors, but mostly they’re right I think. Over time, any errors will be corrected.

Where I Hope You Are

For so long
There’s been no-one else I care about
That my heart could really be so wrong again
Well it wears me out

I had a picture in my soul
Some place warm we could hang out when we’re old
Now it’s just – where I hope you are

These days, in so many, so many ways
My life gets bad for you
But your face when you look at me, look at me that way
Tears me in two

I had a picture, it’s not your fault
But the chair in the room where I get old
Now it’s just – where I hope you are

Oh, but there was a time
All I had to do was look at you
The world was mine
I’m telling you the world was mine

I’m so sorry
It’s like all of those deleted scenes you told me about
I’d pick them from the floor
Say Darlin’, show them all once more. For me.

A child’s fears
For so many, so many years
The good life got bad for you
But there’s no-one at the end of that smoking gun
Can’t you see your Mum and Dad just won the day

But it can happen, I’ve been told
Sometimes, babe,  drunken angels stumble home
Now it’s just where I hope you are

Oh, but there was a time
All I had to do was look at you
The world was mine
I’m telling you the world was mine

I’m so sorry
It’s like all of those deleted scenes you told me about
I’d pick them from the floor
Say Darlin’,  show them all once more, for me.
For me.
For me.
For me.
For me.

I’m so sorry…

All suggestions for fixing these up gratefully received in the comments!

32 thoughts on “George Michael – Where I Hope You Are – Lyrics

  1. OMGS…How brilliant are his words…breaks my heart and tugs at the heart strings both at the same time…What emotion…Thank you Remarkable for giving us even the slightest idea of what you (or someone else) thinks these lyrics might be…*TEARS*…Tissues required,,,

  2. Have to find some time to sort out the meaning of the lyrics. But anyway, my suggestions for the 2 missing parts are:

    For the first verse, I hear either “but where it is spinning (a)round” or “but where it is been around” (in sense of the heart’s been everywhere but with Kenny or so), and your “?? I’ve had that fear” line seems to be “The good life that I fear”.

  3. Thanks for sharing! That’s exactly what I hear… and what I don’t hear!😉
    I’m still trying to wrap my head around the meaning of these lyrics… and his choice of words….hmmm….why “smoking gun”?

  4. My inner fan quite mysteriously got awaken again when I heard this. And Russian Roulette. It’s odd, cause I’ve listened to R.R. quite a bit for the past few months – the original, that is😉 What he’s saying before the song puts everything into place, doesn’t it? Considering when he first started going off the rails bigtime. I know it’s a classic comment, but I actually know how he feels. Been there.

  5. This song cannot come out soon enough for me! I love his heart and how honest he is, even with such painfully personal emotions – breaks my heart to know he’s still mourning the breakup after all this time

  6. @geni

    the smoking gun(bottle) is surely kenny’s addiction and the next line kind of backs that up “mum and dad winning” would mean maybe he had “issues” with his parents and him drinking himself to death would make them the moral winners…?
    the next lines”But it can happen, I’ve been told
    Sometimes, babe, drunken angels stumble home(love that line)
    Now it’s just where I hope you are” must mean him maybe beating his addiction to drink??

    whatever,its a fucking amazing song…love it

  7. I think maybe he’s saying

    That my heart could really be so wrong again
    “Well it wears me out”

    It’s beautiful but so sad.

  8. According to GM..after Kenny s parents died Kenny got addicted to acholal wich was the reason for the break up… …I feel bad for both of them sonce they went thru so much together. Yet Kenny was giveing GM moral support just 10 months ago when GM did jail time and even visted him. Some how I just hope in time they can get back together….it seems as if a lot of careing.. maybe love is still there on both sides.

  9. I could be way off here but I wonder if the ‘smoking gun’ is a reference to the way Kenny’s dad died. He shot himself and died a few days later. But perhaps it’s a metaphorical smoking gun.

  10. I think when he says ,, drunken angels stumble home….that he is hopeing Kenny comes back home to him. And of course achole free. I dont know if Kenny had isuses with his parent s or not…. maybe loseing both parents he turned to drink to lessen the pain but got addicted to it. Your mum and dad has won the day……maybe meaning, if you keep drinking you will be joining your parents. ……hmmmm I dont think GM s heart was WRONG…..there was love on both sides but addiction messes that up……praying Kenny gets help for his sake. And IFFFFFF they get back together , sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

  11. Hi everyone,
    Just thought I’d post this interview that Kenny gave back in 2005, it actually explains alot about Kenny’s background and his battle to fight his deamons. sorry for the copy paste but you can no longer link directly to the story

    Gallery owner Kenny Goss’ life has been a success by any measure: wealth, friends, love – yet insecurities linger

    04:09 PM CDT on Saturday, July 23, 2005

    By MICHAEL GRANBERRY / The Dallas Morning News

    It was the opening night of Goss Gallery, an avant-garde showplace on Cedar Springs. For its owner and founder, it should have been the culmination of everything he had ever wanted to do or be or become.

    COURTNEY PERRY/Special Contributor
    The grand opening party for the Goss Gallery on Cedar Springs was a night of jitters for founder Kenny Goss.

    But at 10:30, all Kenny Goss was feeling was a panic attack.

    There he was, surrounded by the people he loves most in the world: pop star George Michael, his life partner for a decade; younger brother Tim Goss; and Tim’s wife, Joyce. Not to mention David LaChapelle, whose stunning celebrity photography is the gallery’s first exhibit.

    In another corner was basketball superstar Steve Nash (Kenny’s friend) and Tim Jefferies, whose renowned Hamiltons gallery in London inspired the Cedar Springs gallery.

    Dozens of gorgeous fashion models showed up, as did a coterie of luminaries from the art world and Dallas’ gay community. All were there to sing Kenny’s praises. But on this night in May, what he felt most was the urge to flee.

    Mr. Goss, after a successful career in sales, pursued his passion for art by opening his own gallery with the intention of bringing an edge to the city.

    “I have a high comfort level, but I still freak out,” he says. “I still walk through the door like a little kid, wondering, ‘Do they like me?’ There was a point at the party when it was madness. I’m a real pleaser anyway. I like to make everyone happy.”

    And suddenly that night, it was just too much.

    “So I walked all the way down the street, several blocks away, all by myself. I sat on the curb thinking, ‘What the hell have I done? How can I possibly handle something this big? How can I live up to the expectations? Am I going to be able to pay the bills? I hope George is proud of me. I hope I don’t let people down.’ I was being pulled in a million different directions at once, and the truth is, I am a painfully shy person.”

    So he sat there, shunning laughter for tears.

    To most people, Mr. Goss, 46, appears to be a handsome, charming, wildly successful businessman with a high-profile partner and a cocktail-party lineup of outrageously famous friends. He has, after all, sat at the same table with Paul McCartney. And he’s no stranger to Dallas, where he and Mr. Michael list a $2-million-plus Turtle Creek condominium as one of their four homes, the other three being in Mr. Michael’s native Britain.
    [Click image for a larger version] Kenny Goss
    Kenny Goss
    Tim Goss says that while growing up, his older brother ‘was there at every turn to protect me.’

    A Lambda Chi Alpha fraternity brother at the University of North Texas, Mr. Goss entered Lawrence “Herkie” Herkimer’s cheerleading supply business when he was 23 and became one of the most successful salesmen in the company’s history, as in millionaire successful. At one point, he was promoted to its moribund West Coast division and made it the company’s breadwinner.

    Tim Goss says that while growing up, his older brother ‘was there at every turn to protect me.’
    And yet, despite all of his outward trappings of success, Mr. Goss admits having wrestled with self-esteem since he was born. He grew up a Texas kid, besieged by what he and his brother call alcoholic, dysfunctional parents, neither of whom ever acknowledged his homosexuality or met his partner. His mother died of cancer in 2000. His father died of a second stroke in late 2003, days after shooting himself in his front yard in Coleman, Texas, in a suicide attempt, according to the local police department.

    Not long after that, Kenny checked himself into the Meadows, a high-end Arizona rehab facility, for what he says had become a growing dependence on prescription sleeping medication.

    “I had a huge amount of guilt,” he says, in large part because of having “no relationship of any kind with this man who tried to kill himself.”

    Jetting back and forth between Britain and the United States, hopscotching across time zones, “my addiction slowly escalated,” he says. He reached a point where, in a vain attempt to fall asleep, he was tripling his dose, consuming pills he had gotten from his doctor and supplementing those with more pills purchased off the Internet.

    “I spent five weeks at the Meadows, realizing how and why I had gotten to that point,” he says. “And the truth is, I was taking steps backward. But that’s another thing privilege affords you – the ability to get well. The truth is, I feel blessed. Very, very blessed.”

    Telling his family

    Kenny says his life changed dramatically two decades ago, when, finally, he acted on something he had long suspected: that he was gay. “My brother and I are extremely close,” says Mr. Goss. “He was one of the first people to know.”

    But when it came to telling Mom or Dad, or having them meet the love of his life, forget it. “It was this big pink elephant in the center of every holiday,” he says. “It was the one thing everyone knew about but didn’t dare discuss.”

    Even after their deaths, Kenny is reluctant to say much about Mom or Dad. Less reticent is younger brother Tim, 43, one of Dallas’ most successful class-action attorneys and the father of an 11-year-old girl. Tim says, were it not for Kenny, his own childhood might have been intolerable.

    “I shudder to think how I might have turned out had I not had one good parent,” says Tim, “and for me, that parent was Kenny. He was there at every turn to protect me, but the sad thing is, Kenny had no one to protect him. He was out there all by himself.”

    Born in Brownwood, Kenny says his dad worked hard. The elder Goss sold fire protection equipment for buildings; his mother was a homemaker. When Kenny was 5, the family moved to Irving, and when he was 12, they moved again, to Euless.

    He graduated from Trinity High School, where he angered his stern, demanding dad by making the varsity gymnastics team – not the football team. It was a sore point, he says, and part of a sad, recurring theme. No matter how hard he tried, he never seemed able to please his father.

    Despite the difficulties at home, Kenny says his parents were “salt-of-the-Earth country people” who, in many ways, were simply doing the best they could.

    Kenny ended up with a degree in education, and though he never got a graduate degree, he took master’s-level courses in political science to try to determine a future path. In 1982, he followed his own career as a popular UNT cheerleader and fraternity brother – one who dated some of the most dazzling women on campus, including a former Miss Texas – by leaving behind summers of part-time work at Mr. Herkimer’s cheerleading camps to join the company full time.

    Herkie Herkimer, now 79, was more than a mentor for Mr. Goss. He was also a legend: He invented “the Herkie,” his own distinctive cheerleading maneuver. Mr. Goss remained an executive with the company for more than two decades.

    When the company sent him to Los Angeles in 1988, “everything changed for me,” he says. “I became interested in a lot of things. I was a Texas boy who went to L.A. and just went, ‘Wow!’ That’s where I met George, which had a huge impact in terms of me being able to see the world.”

    He and Mr. Michael met at Fred Segal, L.A.’s very, very trendy fashion-beauty-celebrity destination. Each was waiting in line for a bite to eat at the Fred Segal restaurant when they struck up a conversation.

    Mr. Goss says Mr. Michael, as much as anyone, helped put at bay his feelings of low self-esteem.

    “I spent a lot of time reminding Kenny that we only get one chance at life and we should enjoy every minute of it,” says Mr. Michael, via e-mail. “And, as a result of our successes, he should never forget the freedom that comes with privilege.”

    Mr. Michael also steered him to psychotherapy, and for nine years, he has seen, often as many as three times a week, a well-known psychiatrist whose clients include some of the most recognizable names in show business.

    Family – and one unspoken family “secret” – are frequent topics.

    Kenny’s telling his father he was gay would have been far more surprising than keeping quiet, says his brother. “Dad was a World War II and Korean War veteran,” says Tim Goss. “He was not somebody who would have taken that well. He rode us pretty hard as kids. Certainly, we were not sexually abused or even physically abused. Some of it was physical, but it was mostly mental. We just didn’t see a lot of kindness from our father, nor from our mother. The kindness I saw in life came from my brother.

    “Our father, for instance, never even told us he loved us. Once, he even told me, ‘Men just don’t say that to other men.’ My brother saw from an early age that that wasn’t right and sought to protect me.”

    A passion for art

    About 10 years ago, Herkie Herkimer’s Cheerleader Supply Co. was sold to the National Spirit Group, which in early 2004 sold the business to its largest competitor, Varsity Spirit. Mr. Goss had grown accustomed to shuttling back and forth between Los Angeles and London, but last year, its new owners suggested that he spend most of his work time in the U.S.

    So he moved on. He left the company last August and for three months did nothing. He says his therapist helped him plot a new direction, one involving a passion – art – and a dream: To bring a flair and sophistication to Dallas, an “edge” that he felt the old hometown sorely needed.

    As much as anything, he’s proud of the fact that he did it with his money and not a penny of Mr. Michael’s. “That would have really screwed with my self-esteem,” says Mr. Goss.

    Mr. Michael, whose new album, Patience, contains two adoring songs about Mr. Goss, says he and his partner have been art collectors for a while now.

    “But more importantly,” Mr. Michael says, “Kenny has spent much of the 10 years we’ve been together busying himself in the museums and galleries of Europe while he waited for me to surface from the recording studio – which didn’t happen often! Kenny’s taste is more eclectic than mine. …But I think David LaChapelle’s show was a perfect way to open Goss Gallery. He is quite clearly a genius, and the show is breathtaking. I had my eye on the Faye Dunaway piece, but I think I’m too late.”

    Formerly “Ginger” of the Spice Girls, Geri Halliwell is a close friend of both Mr. Goss and Mr. Michael. Just after leaving her band, she moved in with her two male friends.

    “It became very much a Will & Grace situation,” she says. “I meant to stay a week, and I stayed about three months. Be careful when you invite me over.”

    Kenny’s decision to launch a gallery “just kind of went full steam ahead,” says Ms. Halliwell, who briefly dated Mr. Nash, the former Dallas Maverick, with Mr. Goss playing matchmaker. “I’ve never seen Kenny so inspired and alive, which is testament to the fact that he’s the right man to be behind such a gallery.”

    Great teams

    Mr. Goss prides himself on assembling “great teams,” a tactic that brought him high esteem during two decades of escalating success with the cheerleader company. He took the same approach with the gallery, asking the inimitable Tim Jefferies to be a consultant and appointing as director and curator of Goss Gallery a longtime Hamiltons fixture, Filippo Tattoni-Marcozzi.

    Mr. Michael thinks the gallery will remain a hit, well beyond its splashy opening.

    “I like Dallas,” the singer says, “because there is a refreshing lack of cynicism in the city, especially when compared to New York, L.A. or even London. Without a doubt, people are friendlier. Kenny has a great group of people around him, and not just in terms of the gallery.”

    Mr. Jefferies, who met Mr. Goss through Mr. Michael, praises him for his “boundless enthusiasm, his almost uniquely American belief that nothing is impossible. Where else could you conceive the idea of a gallery and have it open six months later? It’s phenomenal how quickly it all came together, and it’s not just a tin-pot operation. It’s a world-class gallery with a world-class exhibition program.”

    For Mr. Goss, however, the issues of self-esteem are never far away. They are, in fact, as close as the street corner where he found himself alone and crying, when he should have been sipping pomegranate martinis with his guests.

    “I’m still about 50 percent on the self-esteem meter,” he says. “I would say I’m frightened that this isn’t going to work, absolutely. If I could be a parent, the one thing I would instill in kids is self-esteem. I would tell them they are beautiful, that they are smart. I don’t think you can ever have too much self-esteem or be too confident. I would give anything to have known that feeling … you know?”

  12. After reading that, poor sweet Kenny..I want to HUG him. Still hopeing he can turn it around and he can be truly truly happy…..hopeful back with George too.

  13. I’d really really love to give a big and warm cuddle to George right now…i want him to know that i am thinking of him every day and he is in my prayers constantly …xxxx

  14. @Pippy, forgive me for saying this, but Kenny is the one I feel sorry for the most, seems to me that once again he is left to look after himself.. Of course it breaks my heart to see George so heartbroken but HE choose to leave,- which Im sure was a difficult and painful decision to make- Kenny didn’t. So I feel worse for Kenny- bless him.. because it is always easier to leave than to be left behind

  15. Omg, i didn’t meant to be tactless to Kenny , forgive me if i came across this way ! I pray for Kenny too that he can heal his heart , it must be hard for both parties , so hard when u know that u still have so much love for sb but u know that maybe being apart is the right path to take,if they can give up their addictions while they are apart it will best for both …George touring now , hope he feels the love that all of us have for him and we are supporting them both , to be happy in the future …

  16. @Pippy, I didnt think you were tactless to anyone🙂 Sorry if i gave you that impression🙂 xx

  17. I have to say…George Michael has some of the most loving fans I’ve ever seen…his fans are genuinely concerned for his well being & those whom he holds dear. He’s been around a long time & to his fans he is as beautiful and as fresh as ever…I LOVE you guys for loving my/our baby George Michael

  18. I feel that “George Michael” is one of the most talented, compassionate, charitable and kind people that I have ever seen…He deserves everything positive and good in his life…”Symphonica” has proven his talent and long standing ability to bring in the loyal and loving fans that he has…He still has a very long tour ahead of him and I send positive vibes and thoughts for him in his personal life…

  19. I don’t think that George “chose” to leave Kenny anymore then he “chose” to get addicted to anything, or then Kenny “chose” an addiction. It could have been a mutual decision, the both of them realising that however much they obviously love each other, they were dragging each other down in stead of helping each other. It’s a fact that relationships seldom survive addiction problems…let alone when both partners are having addiction problems. Must have been such a mess.

  20. Thank you for the post. And thank you Moonchild, for pasting that article here, it does give us a lot of insight into Kenny doesn’t it? Hope both of them find happiness.

  21. All your posts are so lovely and caring for both George and Kenny. I don’t feel like such a freak now. I hope both of them find happiness and cure their demons. oxox

  22. This song makes me cry and i think i will cry once i get to listen to it live in London , the music is so moving , just the music itself is enough to get me started …

  23. I feel so bad for Kenny. He (Kenny) was there for George from 1998 Georges first arrest until George was in jail 2010. At the end it seemed that George was the one that got distant not Kenny. Love you Kenny always will.

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